Tuesday, February 28, 2006
That First Glance...
It was a Saturday afternoon and I was just making my way through myspace pages like always, and came across a "friend"of a "friend" who I couldn't take my eyes off of. I really didn't know what I was thinking or expecting when I went to his page, but I knew for some strange reason that I needed to go there. And when I got there, I stayed. One, his page didn't look like a "Girls Gone Wild" ad, and TWO he had this mystery behind his eyes that I had to delve into. I clicked on his image and it took me to this incredibly crafted, maroon background, tastefully artful page. I just skimmed around the page and noticed a blog entry that was titled "Disney Drawings", I was like "this guy just keeps getting better and better." So I "viewed more" and noticed that he was an artist!! Wow...and a really good one at that. For some reason, even though I had no clue who he was, I felt this overwhelming need to comment on this. So I did. Two days passed and to my surprise he messaged me back. Though that was not my intention at all, I was so glad that he did. And so well..that's how this amazing journey began. We began talking on IM, trying to communicate times that we could possibly meet in person, but my nerves definitely got the best of me. I was truly scared to meet him. I don't even know if I told him this, but I was so fearful that I wouldn't be what he was expecting. I kept playing that scene in my head, that he walks up to me and I walk up to him and he looks at me like...uh...ok...not what I was thinking. So...it wasn't that I made up reasons why I couldn't meet, it was just I didn't go out of my way to make time for him. Finally, I just felt like enough was enough, I told myself "Laura you really really like this guy, you need to quit these, no self-esteem, unusually shy, don't think you deserve something great, games and meet him. So...I invited him to my house and that whole day my stomach felt like it was on a non-stop rollercoaster. I went to work and barely got anything done...came home...and made sure the whole house was clean, because yeah, first impressions are important. I talked to him around 7:30 and he was planning on coming over around 9ish, and then well it was over from there. I was throwing close around like crazy, my room looked like Katrina just came by for a snack. Looked at the clock, it was 9 - GOOD GRIEF HE WILL BE HERE ANY MINUTE. My best friend Jami came over, she was ready to meet him, from everything I had told her she was intrigued. Even my roommates Britni and Caitlin spent all day cleaning for this occasion...I have the best friends.
I was down stairs when Brit called down to tell me that a pair of headlights just turned in. Deep Breath, one last look in the mirror, he was here, and ready or not I had to be. When I saw him...it was like unlike anything I have ever experienced in my life. I don't know how nervous he was, but when I saw him that all was a memory. He felt like home. Instantly comforted in that first embrace. He smelled amazing. His eyes just sparkled, his laugh was contagious, his voice was soft, his hair was so 70's and I loved that, his clothes were vintage and perfect, his smile is what drew me in and kept me captivated to be near him. Into the hours of the night and on to the morning I found myself already falling in love with this boy. He was unlike anyone I have ever met. His past...one of the most enchanting stories I have ever heard. He had to grow up fast and he was better for it. His faith and love for God was awe-inspiring, he was already an inspiration and I didn't even know his last name. I have no doubt that when he left that morning, with the sun greeting his way home, that I was changed forever.
I'll never forget that night, not ever.
To this day we are still going strong, in fact I fall more in love with him with each passing day. It has only been a month, but it seems like I have known him forever. God truly brought him into my life and I don't know why, and I don't know how, but we belong. He is the most wonderful person I have ever encountered. And that is even an understatement. He knows exactly what to say, and when to say it. He makes me feel truly beautiful. I still really don't even understand how I got this lucky to have this man in my life. I mean I have definitely had my fair share of the bad ones, the good ones, but Colin, Colin is great. Someone once told me you get to love and be loved many times in your lifetime, but there is that one great love that is only that...one. He is that one. I have no doubt in my mind that he's my other half. Before him I lived my life, and it was a good one. Post Colin is Amazing. My friends even say that I glow when his name is mentioned. Everything he is, everything he does ~ surrounds me. He supports my life, my job, my friends, my thoughts, my wishes, my dreams, my frustrations, my bad and good moments, brings me soup and juice when I'm under the weather. Who does that? Colin, Colin does that. Because you know what, you don't get much better than him. I love him, I love him, I love him.
We have some of the most amazing moments when we're together. When I look at him I see myself and I never want to be anywhere else but in his eyes. He makes me come alive. I love so many things about him. I think I wrote him a 7 page list of everything (so far) that just enrapture me about him. He is what I want for the rest of my life. Is it too much, too soon to say something like that? I've got so much more to give ~ I've got to have a lifetime to show him what he means to me. I would give up everything that I have, just to be with him and see him happy. I have always been told to protect my heart, be weary of those who might have bad intentions, keep your heart locked but leave the key within reach...he takes all the bars down. No walls, no gates, no hesitations, he has all of me, unconditionally. When I with him, there is no where else I want to be. I ache for him, when I'm not with him I dream about when I will be. I didn't even know it was possible to feel this way?!?!?! Is this love? I am convinced. Because of Colin ~ I can now laugh in the face of my insecurities, because he holds me like that...carelessly, lost in his touch, completely defenseless. With him I can let my hair down, say crazy things, act silly, and just be me. And he loves me for just that...being me.
Our lives parallel. We have the love of God in our hearts, we love and are loved in return. You should see him with his friends. He is the center of their attention. He would do anything for those who he cares about, to be in his life, consider yourself safe. He goes to school full-time, works at night, works at church, runs sound for a fantastic band, yet he still finds time to just get lost with me. How could I even ask for anything more? Right now, tomorrow and forever I will never hesitate to love him with everything I am, even though he deserves so much more. Thanks to that first glance, I have found the culmination of everything I had hoped for, every minute of what I have prayed for, and a true recognition of how truly powerful God is.
I was down stairs when Brit called down to tell me that a pair of headlights just turned in. Deep Breath, one last look in the mirror, he was here, and ready or not I had to be. When I saw him...it was like unlike anything I have ever experienced in my life. I don't know how nervous he was, but when I saw him that all was a memory. He felt like home. Instantly comforted in that first embrace. He smelled amazing. His eyes just sparkled, his laugh was contagious, his voice was soft, his hair was so 70's and I loved that, his clothes were vintage and perfect, his smile is what drew me in and kept me captivated to be near him. Into the hours of the night and on to the morning I found myself already falling in love with this boy. He was unlike anyone I have ever met. His past...one of the most enchanting stories I have ever heard. He had to grow up fast and he was better for it. His faith and love for God was awe-inspiring, he was already an inspiration and I didn't even know his last name. I have no doubt that when he left that morning, with the sun greeting his way home, that I was changed forever.
I'll never forget that night, not ever.
To this day we are still going strong, in fact I fall more in love with him with each passing day. It has only been a month, but it seems like I have known him forever. God truly brought him into my life and I don't know why, and I don't know how, but we belong. He is the most wonderful person I have ever encountered. And that is even an understatement. He knows exactly what to say, and when to say it. He makes me feel truly beautiful. I still really don't even understand how I got this lucky to have this man in my life. I mean I have definitely had my fair share of the bad ones, the good ones, but Colin, Colin is great. Someone once told me you get to love and be loved many times in your lifetime, but there is that one great love that is only that...one. He is that one. I have no doubt in my mind that he's my other half. Before him I lived my life, and it was a good one. Post Colin is Amazing. My friends even say that I glow when his name is mentioned. Everything he is, everything he does ~ surrounds me. He supports my life, my job, my friends, my thoughts, my wishes, my dreams, my frustrations, my bad and good moments, brings me soup and juice when I'm under the weather. Who does that? Colin, Colin does that. Because you know what, you don't get much better than him. I love him, I love him, I love him.
We have some of the most amazing moments when we're together. When I look at him I see myself and I never want to be anywhere else but in his eyes. He makes me come alive. I love so many things about him. I think I wrote him a 7 page list of everything (so far) that just enrapture me about him. He is what I want for the rest of my life. Is it too much, too soon to say something like that? I've got so much more to give ~ I've got to have a lifetime to show him what he means to me. I would give up everything that I have, just to be with him and see him happy. I have always been told to protect my heart, be weary of those who might have bad intentions, keep your heart locked but leave the key within reach...he takes all the bars down. No walls, no gates, no hesitations, he has all of me, unconditionally. When I with him, there is no where else I want to be. I ache for him, when I'm not with him I dream about when I will be. I didn't even know it was possible to feel this way?!?!?! Is this love? I am convinced. Because of Colin ~ I can now laugh in the face of my insecurities, because he holds me like that...carelessly, lost in his touch, completely defenseless. With him I can let my hair down, say crazy things, act silly, and just be me. And he loves me for just that...being me.
Our lives parallel. We have the love of God in our hearts, we love and are loved in return. You should see him with his friends. He is the center of their attention. He would do anything for those who he cares about, to be in his life, consider yourself safe. He goes to school full-time, works at night, works at church, runs sound for a fantastic band, yet he still finds time to just get lost with me. How could I even ask for anything more? Right now, tomorrow and forever I will never hesitate to love him with everything I am, even though he deserves so much more. Thanks to that first glance, I have found the culmination of everything I had hoped for, every minute of what I have prayed for, and a true recognition of how truly powerful God is.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
What this will be...
This is going to be a blog of our lives. It will be a place for you to come to see what's happening in our lives, How God is working in us and through us, what our dreams are, and of course our memories. We'll add videos at times, pictures no doubt, and many a writing to keep you informed. Think of this as a place where you can peek at the diary our diary/journal, and know what's exciting. We look forward to your feedback, and even more so, to what God has in store for us.
I hope to hear from you soon!
~CH
I hope to hear from you soon!
~CH
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